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This is a simple update… Most likely will be deleted and replaced by a better post.

It’s obvious that I need a better time and idea management, so I can post more and having my blogs regularly updated. Yet, to be community manager of whatever community occurred by things I initiated.

The cluttered things on my head… frustrated me… in this post, I’m just trying to be honest to my readers…

To: Paul Caridad Sanchez

cc: Oprah, Schwab, BBC, NBC, Mommies, Twitterers, Geeks

bcc: The World

Subject: simply want to be your friend

hi Paul,

Ok, I got your attention now. Instead of replying via Twitter DM, I like to do it in a post where I can be more than 140 characters, thus (probably) give your video few extra hits from my network and Google search result. I am not really sure this works… but hey, let’s give it a try.

You asked me what inspired me to follow you. To answer that, I have to memorize my twitterring activities in a past few week.

Twitter has been the center of attention for social media analyst in the past few months, and I read what those social media guys write about it. So many, then I decided to actively follow more people just to have sort of “experience” added on comprehending what those guy blog about. Not as much as you do but reasonably sufficient for me.

Note: I still don’t get it how Jake Marsh, Calacanis or Scoble listen to tons of twitterers, I suspect they frequently check at replies or utilize tweetscan and summize more than everybody else.

Here’s how. I find people to follow from some references like these:

• A post by Jeremiah Owyang to encourage social media people (who follow him) to connect each other. I checked you weren’t there.
• Twubble by crazybob definitely helps to find like-minded, friends of friends to follow. This could be the connector.
• Nice posts I read and happens that the blog owner have a twitter account. Did not read yours until yesterday.
• Tweetscan result (I did on intention to find people to follow only once, with keyword “South East Asia”, “Asia”, “Indonesia” and “Jakarta”) which clearly, you never listed there.
• Random picks from friends’ follow. Possible connector
• Random tweets. Possible connector.

Knowing the one to follow is important for me. I don’t want too much noise and could worse, spams in my page. Simply say, I tried to be bit organized on listening whilst I don’t want to miss good contextual tweet either. So I do these things before decision to follow:

• Check the Twiterer’s bio and stat. Recency, how many updates, friends and followed. You are a digg addict, then must be interesting links come out from your tweets. Your stat says that you need more followers (friends).
• Visit the Twiterer’s website and found out more about the person. You won on this

Ok, enough all about social media, twitter crap. Now, here is why I follow you. I watched all your videos, visited your lousy blog, and helloed @you. Then I conclude:

You are a great man and I want to be your friend. I empathize your cause, admire your spirit and think that your doing is a portrait of struggling (see this blog title), thus will actively support you. Your presence in this blog could inspire others…

About your blog. Please do post properly, so people can track you conveniently then you can benefit more from organized feedback. You would benefit more from a mention in a Seth’s post, of course the blogosphere.

About the your video view count. I think your old 8 wishes & 10,000 miles video is a bit overtime by last message loop. Approximately you wasted 2 minutes, whilst youtube counts a valid view only for a full view (a research by tubemogul). Probably missed some view counts there. You were doing better with the new 8 wishes but way too little views compare to the old one.

look forward to hear your updates. Good luck and God Bless You

cheers

For everyone: to know about Paul Caridad Sanchez, please view his 8 wishes video and don’t stop until the video end. Also, don’t forget to visit his blog

Oprah, please interview this nice guy.

Just like blogging… Twitter succeeded hook me with new cool things. Got referred by Rifie, went to her blog to play her Mixwit of her choices tracks… I said cool! Then I made one too… enjoy!

I don’t know if they know Indonesia is populated by hundreds of million people and we do have internet in our computers. comScore made a report on trends and prediction about Internet titled “State of Global Internet“.

Internet usage is low among Southeast Asia countries except Singapore and Malaysia

are you sure about this? I wasn’t sure they did it right in Southeast Asia coverage. The flaw begins just when they did not count Indonesia in. Simply say please look at the fact that Indonesia is no.4 in world population. Even though Indonesian Internet Users only 9% of its population, still it 4 times than the whole Singapore population (including Singaporean who never use internet).

Although Indonesian international bandwidth mostly using Singaporean or Malaysian channels, it should never be problem for a company like Comscore to trace the request origin.

Alternatively please see:

• google.co.id ranked 3 in Indonesia (alexa) with over 500 million daily pageviews. See Alexa
• Asian Internet Usage

Just like other Internet geek, I like comScore but their flaw coverage on southeast Asia could mislead region specific business interest and overall internet usage mapping.

This, of course part of my experiences using online services like twitter, facebook, friendfeed, qik, ustream, tweetscan, tweeterboard, and more. I just can’t list all here but I will list what found interesting reading and what I do on the web today.

• Upgraded this blog. Now, this blog already using wordpress 2.5. I also dumped the old coffee theme because too many incompatibility with all latest wp engine. I am not into this theme but to find a free and easy to customize theme was never easy for me as I always picky and conservative about design. So I hope this condition is only temporary.

• Read post about monetizing widget in Web Strategist Blog by Jeremiah Owyang. He announced it in twitter last night, and because I believe he’s on the right track on social media, then I paid a visit. Just when I was about adding comment to his monetizing business model through widget list, I found that Rodney Rumford already did much better than what I wanted to add. Credit to him, and I started to follow the founder of facereviews.com. Of course he is good, he’s on it every second.

• I blocked an “unknown facebook friend” named Widyanto Duta Nugroho and reported him on spam act to the facebook customer service. He spammed badly and I never had a real conversation regarding his act (he didn’t response to my messages). I believe, I did help other facebook users.

• I tried few of twitter related services again. These services actually do best for twitter experience: tweeterboard, tweetscan, and quotably.

• Read a post titled “what does facebook actually do for me” by Chris Brogan which he actually asked everyone who follow him on Twitter (or anywhere), and he got loads quality comments. I also added my perspective, bit unique one as I believe that its most comments come from English Tongue (American and English), that probably positioned us, the Southeast Asian as newbies (we are and I explained about it).

• My curiosity. A comment from Chris Brogan post leads me to another good blog, specifically a post about how Robert Scoble (a tech-geek blogger) loves/hates facebook and somehow loves twitter. The blog owner is Hutch Carpenter and he did write very good posts. I shared one on my facebook profile.

• Guess what? Hutch’s post about his blogging experience made me land on another very much worth to visit blog belongs to Louis Gray. Read a post about posting statistic and watch interview video of Scoble by Pete Cashmore from Mashable. From the interview post, Scoble said that he did not know Louis Gray who make it to Techmeme Leaderboard for sometime, of course commented by Louis. As for me… I checked out Techmeme Leaderboard and Technorati Top 100 for most visited blog.

• From a tweet by Aulia Masna, I know that I missed an event, an Id-Mac Gathering which I always wanted to go. More from him, there will be British Council Bloggers Day event sponsored by ChIP on Sunday which also my curiosity at most, but all seat are reserved. I’ll pass another offline blogosphere.

• Subscribed few feeds from above blogs to my netvibes, update and customize mybloglog, watch John Spencer on qik covering something about Celine Dion. No, I don’t forget to check out my facebook.

Early this year, Time reviewed about Friendster moved to Asia. Though I am bit late for the article (just found it), I think it's lame. Everybody in Asia knows that right after myspace and YouTube, Friendster only hope was Asian. However they decided to fight, and they won the social network patent, but for what?

Last year just before the facebook platform hype, it launched its alternative languages features which was chinese, followed by Korean and Japanese but left out all Southeast Asian users which was (is) biggest portion of registered users. Why chinese? Obviously everyone after China for giant market acquisition. How did they perform? Not well…

Friendster traffic ranks in East Asian and Southeast Asian countries according Alexa:

• China 209
• Japan 256
• South Korea 19
• Hongkong 179
• Macao 59
• Philippines 1
• Brunei 1
• Malaysia 2
• Indonesia 2
• Singapore 5
• Thailand 415

And some other regions:

• Australia 20
• New Zealand 30
• United States 101
• United Kingdom 93
• United Arab Emirate 10
• Qatar 11
• India 367

Data not available for South America and Africa (very few).

Look at the traffic ranks, Friendster already failed in China, Japan and Hongkong. China users already enjoy local social networking like 51.com and qq.com, while Japanese has mixi.com. Benjamin Joffe, Managing Director of Asia Internet Consultancy did not even count Friendster in today competition on an interview by ReadWriteWeb.com.

Even though Indonesian contributes as major traffic since 2004, the option to switch to Bahasa Indonesia lastly provided on March this year, and it is very lousy. Other Languages option provided are Traditional Chinese, Simplified Chinese, Japanese, Korean, Spanish, and English.

How is Friendster doing in its birthland, US? According Quancast, Friendster has about 1,3 million American users. About 40% actively contributes traffic on daily basis while 10% described as addicted users and most are Asian of 25-34 y/o. (I can't access Quantcast for second look due to server maintenance?).

I have been user at Friendster since 2004, and it helped me meet long lost friends and new friends as well. I also enjoyed many other services like blog, gallery and feeds. What I found to be annoying were Friendster seems to easily approved fake profiles, did not do much about spams, and did not response well on user reports and complaints. I also had reported some malicious code on few profile testimonials but never received their response. 

They claimed to have 65 user worldwide and growing. I wonder how many of them are fake. 

I suggest Friendster, to be more serious to listen to its constituent whatever languages spoken, find it as more opportunities to reveal. Lucky to have OpenSocial but please do more on the developer page. Also, it is important to have local rep while Friendster execs don't understand what their million users talk about.

Sidenote:

• This blog enjoys traffic from thousands queries on google about "cara daftar friendster" (how to sign up on Friendster).
• Today, I check my Facebook on daily basis.

Referred by Jeremiah Owyang's update on twitter… a summary of a 'shaker' book titled 4-hour workweek by Timothy Ferris. This book suggest few steps to have more and work less… if you want to enjoy life more… note what interesting..

Outsource your life

Please see if you think you need it..

How do you like to work only 4 hour a week but still earn more?? Go buy and read the book and tell me if you ever make it 4 a week. Please.. 

As for me… I say no to this book. I rather put it as a distraction to what I am. Misdirection and another obstacle in my struggling… see my blog title. 

You probably one of those who think that my English sucks.

Yes I know, pretty much aware of the issue since I read/write lots on web but found that only a few really got my points. No, I am not that into stubbornness on this, but my top priority still to improve my time management (very lousy).

Noticed from statistics that non-Indonesian often visit this blog. Of course I love to share my thought to those who don't read Indonesian, but most of the contents written in bahasa Indonesia. So, I made "english" as a new category to help those English readers finding English content easier.

Please browse the English content. 

Dear God,

I know that You did so, made me did what I did. Was not grateful bit sometimes and vanity was all over me all the time. You've made me never be the best of the best, the better or the worse… You just somehow adjusting the field… so I had to, but I had not did the best I could… Yet, patience all Yours… I was torturing myself not had You as my friend… 

I did not do what I had to.

For the better as You told me, I waited and idled… but my mouth produced craps, all about the best.. and I cheated… but mostly idled..

I am immature older guy, today… 

You put me among those whom caring and the best I should more than grateful… are not what they had not did nor were… but they just simply Your voice… Blinded, I ignored… but they never gave up on me… I am blessed but did not know… but that's all I was for past few years..

They are my family, friends and others, giving me more than love… I am down on my knees begging You, hoping more from and for them… to keep me alive…

Remorse, You might say… A prayer…  blessing and everything Divined for them.. Have Mother Mary around… 

and all for the Glorification and Joy!

Thank You, dear God.

- ad maiorem dei gloriam - 

True. I have this laziness big time to deal with. All the time and all my consciousness has…

To think is another different issue that I would never give up for anything… only I'd hardly ever stay focus on matters.. This been going on since hundred years and deep inside I always found someone to blame on… My family, girlfriends, friends…

Now. I am trying to be diligent… Yes, some people trust me on doing things. These irresponsible senses are grudging my nerve.. and I hate being one of those smuck…

Remind me on things I have to:

• Do those NET projects
• Do wake up earlier
• Do pay the bills!!! (avoid penalties)
• Do manage the cash (after all I should be the king, not cash)
• Do clean up my place (home, office, workshop)
• Do greet family, partner, co-worker, friends (they also have their birthdays)
• Do chase the dreams!!!

…for these probably some reasons I live this life…