struggling dreams

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This is a simple update… Most likely will be deleted and replaced by a better post.

It’s obvious that I need a better time and idea management, so I can post more and having my blogs regularly updated. Yet, to be community manager of whatever community occurred by things I initiated.

The cluttered things on my head… frustrated me… in this post, I’m just trying to be honest to my readers…

Dear God,

I know that You did so, made me did what I did. Was not grateful bit sometimes and vanity was all over me all the time. You've made me never be the best of the best, the better or the worse… You just somehow adjusting the field… so I had to, but I had not did the best I could… Yet, patience all Yours… I was torturing myself not had You as my friend… 

I did not do what I had to.

For the better as You told me, I waited and idled… but my mouth produced craps, all about the best.. and I cheated… but mostly idled..

I am immature older guy, today… 

You put me among those whom caring and the best I should more than grateful… are not what they had not did nor were… but they just simply Your voice… Blinded, I ignored… but they never gave up on me… I am blessed but did not know… but that's all I was for past few years..

They are my family, friends and others, giving me more than love… I am down on my knees begging You, hoping more from and for them… to keep me alive…

Remorse, You might say… A prayer…  blessing and everything Divined for them.. Have Mother Mary around… 

and all for the Glorification and Joy!

Thank You, dear God.

- ad maiorem dei gloriam - 

True. I have this laziness big time to deal with. All the time and all my consciousness has…

To think is another different issue that I would never give up for anything… only I'd hardly ever stay focus on matters.. This been going on since hundred years and deep inside I always found someone to blame on… My family, girlfriends, friends…

Now. I am trying to be diligent… Yes, some people trust me on doing things. These irresponsible senses are grudging my nerve.. and I hate being one of those smuck…

Remind me on things I have to:

• Do those NET projects
• Do wake up earlier
• Do pay the bills!!! (avoid penalties)
• Do manage the cash (after all I should be the king, not cash)
• Do clean up my place (home, office, workshop)
• Do greet family, partner, co-worker, friends (they also have their birthdays)
• Do chase the dreams!!!

…for these probably some reasons I live this life…

I just found this page yesterday. Right after Erwin Sudarsono told me that he typed his name in Google search box and he then said, I made him famous…

go ahead… check it out and tell me what you think. Please not about hair… LOL.

Solace Magazine: About a Dreamer

iya, saya mau jual tanah dan bangunan di Ampera.

Bangunan itu berdiri dua lantai dan saat ini lantai bawah digunakan untuk rumah makan padang "Siang Malam". Mereka sendiri berminat untuk pindah dari lokasi itu karena sudah ada lokasi yang baru.

Lokasinya sangat strategis, di jalan ampera raya dan hanya 30 meter dari perempatan TB Simatupang (Jalan Tol). 

Detil lokasi itu:

• Luas tanah: 482 m2; lebar: 10,7 m; panjang: 45 m
• Luas bangunan: 500 m2 (2 lantai)
• Listrik: 22.000 watt
• Telepon: 5 lines
• Status: Setifikat Hak Milik (SHM)
• Alamat: Jl. Ampera Raya no. 3, Cilandak Timur, Jakarta Selatan 12560
• Harga: x.xxx.xxx.xxx (dah naik lagi hehe). 

tampak depan

dan dari samping… 

yang berminat hubungi saya yah, di 08888 333 120 

cheers 

UPDATE:

bagi developer yang berminat untuk membangun gedung atau bentuk property lain dengan kebutuhan sekitar 6000 m2, tersedia tanah yang siap dijual juga. Tanah menghadap jalan TB Simatupang dan nyambung langsung dengan lokasi saya. Jadi kalo dikombinasikan lokasinya bisa mempunyai dua akses sekaligus yaitu jl. TB simatupang dan Jl. Ampera Raya.

salah satu alasan yang bikin blog tidak diupdate. Tidak datang pada undangan pernikahan teman, menunda pekerjaan dan menunda rencana yang makan waktu.

Warbook adalah mainan (game) di dalam facebook yang di develop oleh TJ Murphy dan Benjamin Juang dari freewebs.com. Mainan ini masuk dalam kategori strategy game, hanya saja berbeda dengan strategy game yang populer terdahulu seperti Age of Empires atau Warcraft, Warbook hanya berbasis text. 

Apa asiknya main strategy game dengan baca dan nulis text doang? Mungkin karena jalan di atas Facebook (social networking) yang memungkinkan warbook dimainkan bersama-sama dengan pengguna lainnya sehingga juga dimasukkan ke dalam kategori Social Gaming Network. Iya, di warbook kita bisa main bareng teman dalam contact kita juga dapat teman baru. Saya kemarin dapat temen setelah kita saling melempar serangan yang mematikan.

Dalam warbook kita bisa membangun atau ikut dalam aliansi. Aliansi tentunya adalah term politik, di mana kita saling membantu, berpolitik internal, dan berperang melawan aliansi lain. Ini salah satu yang bikin seru! Perang antar aliansi bisa ditonton di Warbook Forum. 

Saya ketagihan. Semoga setelah menulis ini saya bisa sembuh. Ada yang tahu RSKW (Rumah Sakit Ketergantungan Warbook)?

Links mengenai warbook:

• Warbook
• Warbook on Facebook
• WikiWarbook
• Warbook on Wikipedia
• Warbook Review and Strategy

Have fun warbooking! 

yes… a quite some time to abandon this blog… for nothing special but consolidate the environment. Probably next week, I can back with plenty new things to write…

pembantu berhenti tanpa alasan - got tidak dibersihkan - lack of resources - kanker - kebanjiran

Akhirnya setelah bertahun-tahun nggak ketemuan, kemarin terjadilah ketemuan dengan alasan buka bersama. Pondok Raja Bebek (Duck King) PIM II, pas jam buka puasa. Photo-photo secara kamera canggih (karena gue udik) oleh Adrie:

• versi komplit yang bisa di download (2,5 MB) klik di sini
• versi facebook yang udah ada tag nya, klik di sini
• dan di bawah ini adalah versi yang tinggal diliat aja…

Lanjutnya…

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Yes.. today I am dreaming about few things… the computers, internet, and me working using them. You know, it is never be easy to draw a structure on dreams. Well, this blog enable me to toss them anyway…

Me serving government and enterprises using NET supercomputers.

Yes, even BCA does not have such stuff to process their real time report to partner or regulator system. Can you imagine when they runs their card settlement (clearing house) real time? FYI. Today Visa card and Mastercard payments still settled by a card settlement system running in Tokyo (imagine how rupiah goes abroad). BCA is small compare to Government of Indonesia. I am dreaming NET does have teraflop supercomputers.

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That what I called Struggling Dreams. When dreams exists only in your subconscious and your daily routine, your so called normal life, your short-term expectation and other not so important things in the way. Dreams that left abandoned while people around you tell that you're doing good, that you're performing well, that you will become somebody that they think you really up to… but they never understand what you really really up to…

Dreams are struggling to exist and we often bury them during our daily activities. People don't understand our dreams, they only think that we up to something. Thus people tend to discourage, misleading and give confusing opinion on how to achieve in certain topic.

I say dreams are life essences. Something that moves you to the right path, the most encouraging, the purpose of your life, the vision that build mission you should accomplish. Something that one should focused in.

Dreams are always good because they built by heart, soul and most beautiful life experiences. For all beautiful experiences are the best lessons.

This post just like some other things is a reminder for one to live the dreams and never leave them behind due to whatever else that could be "current obligation". In such situation, never bury but keep. Let them struggle within…

To live the dreams is to live the life. The most precious in life is you, yourself and your dreams.

"Sometimes living out your dreams
Ain't as easy as it seems
You wanna fly around the world
In a beautiful balloon" (life, by desiree)

other says: unveil power of your dreams, your life value, never been there - never done that

image credit: pravsworld.com